this just in...

my name is meredith, and i'm a complete imbecile. also, not so smart in my brains. and here, hot of the presses... i am not a medical doctor. apparently, i am not battling a histamine reaction, i am battling another freaking infection. and, since i waited so long to go to the doctor (yep- just thought i'd wait till my regularly scheduled appt this afternoon) they can't just give me antibiotics. i have to have surgery tomorrow. to remove my expander and clean out the infection. dr. h may be able to put in a permanent gel implant since i'm at the size i want to be, but it will depend on what he sees when he gets in there.

best case scenario: i have surgery tomorrow, get my implant, and restart chemo in about a month. no further infection surfaces and life goes on with a really annoying but in the scheme of things fairly small blip (1-2 weeks off of work, chemo ending in early december instead of the end of october).

other scenario: they open me up tomorrow and can't put in the implant because there's too much of a mess from my infection. they have to close me up flat, and can't start the reconstruction again until 3-6 months after my chemo is finished. and i have to start all over with the expander.

either way, the right side is fine, this is all just effecting the left. and i'm *very* annoyed with myself for not going to the doctor last week. i *really* thought it was the same histamine reaction i've had in the past. i'm not sure when i'm having surgery tomorrow. my girls are with my dad, who happens to be on vacation this week. not sure how long i'll be here. ugh. this whole thing blows. but, it could be worse, so i'm going to really try hard to stop dropping f- bombs and work on getting out of here.