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so far, i gotta say, while it's not horrible, it's not that fun, either. i felt great on wednesday and thursday, but friday was pretty bad. i was really tired, and blah all morning, and then as the day progressed i got more and more sore. by 4pm all of my skin hurt and my muscles and bones were *really* ache-y. saturday was a good day, though, and really the worst of it only lasted 5 hours or so, so i guess i'm better than i could be :) today has been really blah. i don't really feel well, but i can't put a finger on why exactly. i'm not nauseous, but i don't want to eat much. my chest is killing me (possible histamine reaction?), and my back hurts. but, all things considered, i shouldn't complain- it could be much worse!

i've got a pretty busy week coming up, so i'm hoping to feel pretty good. lots of dr's appts, and physical therapy, as well as my last couple of playdates for the summer. i can't believe how fast time flies! my dad and jill are taking the girls for 3 days this week, lindsay and i are setting up my classroom on friday, and we're having symma's bday party next weekend, and then izzy starts back at daycare on the 24th... i'm really looking forward to tuesday- i am going to have the house all to myself for the whole day- and i'm going to watch all of the movies i kept putting aside all summer :) and i'm going to sleep late, and not get dressed. and i'm not going to feel guilty about it! especially since i have to go get chemo the next day and start the crud all over again.

so, i'm doing okay. i'm not feeling all that upbeat or positive at the moment- i'm just really sick of being sick. but i also know that i should be happy to be where i am in this journey. things could be a lot worse. but, feel free to send me some attagirls- you guys always make me feel better- plus, if you comment, i know you're reading :)

thanks for all of my cards and notes- i get so many i can't keep up with who they're all from. but i know my aunt peggy and uncle mike have me on their minds a lot, and i so appreciate it :) kj's auntie alice has been thinking about us a lot, too, and we've gotten such sweet notes (and today a phone call!) from her. and kate made us dinner again last week, which was fabulous :)

and then there's kj's cousins- they've gotten us some cleaning help, and i cannot even tell you how grateful we are. they are coming for the first time on wednesday, so i'll fill you all in on how amazing it is at that point. but i know without a doubt that beth, laura, and katie are amazing people for wanting to help us out this way. and we appreciate it more than you can imagine!! thank you sooooo much!

i'm going to stop feeling sorry for myself now, and get my girls ready for bed. here's hoping to a week that's "a walk in the park" like i've been promised :)