meredith's garden

here are the wig pics...  i know you've all been waiting for them :)  these pics don't make it look nearly as bad as it feels.  it's really itchy.  we'll see how much wear it gets in the next months.  i must say, the weirdest part about it is that everyone that knows me, knows it's a wig...  so i kind of feel like there's no point.  the only time i can really see wearing it is if i'm going to be around a bunch of people that don't know i have cancer.  then maybe it won't feel so odd.  but i just feel like i'm wearing a really dumb hat.  the scarves/hats are much more comfy.  but, it's here if i need it, so that's good :)

i've been pretty out of it for the past couple of days- lots of sleeping and nausea.  but i'm feeling a bit better today.  yesterday amy came over and took my kids for a few hours so i could rest and then i went to get the neulasta shot that helps my white blood cells grow so my counts don't drop so low this time.  so far i haven't had any side effects from that, so that's nice :)  

today i took the kids for a walk around the block.  you wanna see a mad toddler?  put her in a hat with a strap *and* a harness.  she was soooo mad that i ended up carrying her around the block.  not the best choice.  i was so tired when i got home i thought i might pass out for a minute.  but i called my sister, ate a handful of soynuts, and drank a glass of water.  by the time lindz was on her way i was feeling a bit more human.  i was able to make the girls their lunches and feed them (for the most part) by the time she got here, and then i crashed for a couple of hours.  when i woke up, i continued to rest by reading some more of new dawn.  i'm almost done with it already...  man those are some good books :)  

as i mentioned in a previous post, missy started a team for a breast cancer walk in may which i think is so awesome.  she's really pumped and has gotten lots of donations at work and on her site.  yay!  i'll be walking- i should be feeling pretty good that day- and so will kj and the girls.  we'd love to have you with us.  if you walk with us, it's really easy to start your own page to get donations.  or you can just walk to support us :)  here is the link to our team, if you'd like to join... and here is the link to my fundraising page.